Thanks for the kind words. I try to be a nice person but some times my inner b*tch comes out and then I feel guilty for it. The IB is back where she belongs. Coworkers mother is doing teensy bit better but no real improvement. I'm now at work trying to work up the courage to face the stacks of stuff she left for me to do in her absence. Oh well, at least I won't be bored.
(***Warning TMI ahead and stupid questions****)
So can you be allergic to sperm? I only ask this because I've noticed every time I've been inseminated. I end up have cramps and muscle spasms down there. Last year, I just thought maybe it was ovulation pain or something similar (that I just missed in the 20 years before) but now I'm wondering if my body just doesn't like sperm and has been staging a revolt. Possible? Probably not. And since I don't want to freak myself out anymore, I'm avoiding goo.gle searches. I always learn way more than I wanted to and none of it actually helpful to what I need at the time. I've gotten out of the habit of POAS so keep forgetting to use OPKs this time. I wanted to make sure of the day. Oh well... this month I can probably guess just from the obscene amounts of cm. I usually don't notice that but this month... whoa! Good sign, maybe?
(***End of TMI, I think, maybe***)
Why, oh why, do parents drive you crazy? Do they purposely do it or is just a state of being? The reason for my whine? I checked in with my father and step-mother (if I don't make contact occassionally they threaten to report me missing). Nice normal conversation, until, (All religious people look away now) step-mother had to start talking about church and religion and how my life would be just perfect if I started doing such and such. I have nothing against anyone's religious practices but I don't like people trying to force their beliefs down my throat. The ironic thing about this is, when I lived with them as pre-teen / teen, neither of my parents attended church regularly. I started attending on my own for quite a few years despite them not wanting to. Not too long after I became disillusioned with Christia.nity and made the decision to stop going and decided to change religions, they start going to church. Now *EVERY* single conversation I have with them somehow turns to religion. Every. Single. One. I could do without the guilt trips. Really.
I think I worked too hard today. My entire body hurts. I come home and think about just sitting and relaxing. Nope not allowed. My keyboard stopped working on my laptop so I am having to use my old desktop that I haven't used in over a year.
Question for all you current and former ttc'ers out there. Do you just shop and buy whatever strikes your fancy even if you aren't expecting yet or did you wait (or will wait) until you had a confirmed pregnancy? I've been avoiding baby stores and baby aisles in stores for years. Last year I decided not to buy anything for various reasons but those reasons are wavering somewhat this year. So I wanna know what you did. Why or why not?
Oh well... could be worse.
Marielle
Not sure about the "allergy" but in IUIs if the sperm is not thoroughly washed it can cause cramping, from mild to severe reactions.
ReplyDeleteAs for the shopping/buying...I did once I got a BFP but then after the mc put all items in a bin and stuck in my garage never to be opened again until I get another one and it stays. I avoid all things baby, do absolutely no shopping, deleted my A.mazon registry and don't allow myself to think about it. I sometimes see things (Etsy is a prime example) but I close my heart and refuse to consider buying whatever it is. It's just too painful and I feel I will only jinx myself.
My therapy through my first five embryo transfers was bargain shopping for baby. When that door closed, it all got packed away and buried in the garage. My therapy through my next three transfers was buying maternity clothing and a few baby things. Those also got packed away into the garage.
ReplyDeleteNow that I am finally pregnant with twins, I am grateful I bought what I did. I was able to get some really good deals and spread the costs out over three years. I am currently so anxious to get ready for my babies (it's the only part of things I feel I can control), that if I had nothing I would be a wreck.
But I completely understand why people don't want to buy anything.
I didn't buy a single thing baby wise for fear of jinxing. When I decided to TTC an aunt bought all this stuff & gave it to me. After miscarrying, it hurt to much to have it around do I packed it away...after BFP I still couldn't bring myself to buy anything, again for fear of jinxing things, irrational I know.
ReplyDeleteI'm not sure what to tell you about the cramping post-insemination. As Shadow of My Former Self said, there can be cramping with IUIs if the sperm isn't washed well enough. But you're doing at-home inseminations, correct? So that shouldn't be an issue if you're just inseminating vaginally. The sperm would be travelling through the cervix and would get "washed" naturally. From what I've read on Google, it doesn't sound as if you're experiencing an allergic reaction. Apparently allergic reactions to seminal fluid are extremely rare and usually result in itching, hives, and redness.
ReplyDeleteAs for buying baby stuff...I've been very tempted, but I just can't do it. I just don't think I could bear having to deal with baby items if I never bring home a baby.
Yep, at home inseminations. My mind is probably creating the sensations so I'm going to ignore them for now since there isn't any itching or hives.
DeleteI keep wavering between buying and not, but I'm think I'm just going to go with not for now. I've spent years avoiding baby aisles, I don't even want to imagine how bad it will be having baby stuff in my house and unable to have a baby.
I didn't buy much of anything. I did buy a cute little hat - and then forgot all about it until just now, and I'm sure it's much too small for him now. LOL
ReplyDeleteI had some mild cramping and spotting for a few hours after all three of my IUIs and I always thought it was normal, but who knows. As for the buying baby stuff...I had bought about 10 girly outfits in toddler sizes back when I was trying to adopt internationally. Of course I have packed them up for now (since I'm having a boy), but can't decide if I should hold on to them if I T42. I recommend holding off on buying things, it is a waste of money and it was hard to look at them for all those years.
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