I hate the waiting. Have I mentioned that before? Oh, I have? Well, it still is true. It is very frustrating to wait until AF shows up, then wait until "O" day, and then another two weeks waiting until AF shows up once again or you get a positive hpt. The waiting is the worst.
Next in line to that frustration is when you're all geared up and ready to go and then things just seem to fall apart around you. Last year it was just scheduling difficulties that led to me being sure that not all attempts were even good attempts (How many of those tries last year didn't even count?).
This time around it is donor issues. KD is maybe not so great and I think I'll either have to look for another or put things on hold once again until I'm ready to visit an RE's office. I've already caught him out on a couple of lies. The first one I let go because I've occasionally made that mistake as well. (Age - I'm 34 but I've been known to accidentally say anything from 32 to 35 just in the past three months since I turned 34. So him saying the wrong age, I could just write off.) So I think it is time to drop him. Which means putting things on hold.... frustrating.
Searching for a new donor... also frustrating. Waiting until going to the RE's office is possible... even more frustrating. Trying to decide what I want to do and what I should do (not always the same thing)... headache inducing frustrating...
Seeing a theme here?
Marielle
P.S. Thanks for all the well wishes. I truly do appreciate your support.
Sorry for all the frustrations! Hope things work out soon.
ReplyDeleteThe waiting is the worst....it's always waiting - while TTC and then while pregnant....the waiting feels like an eternity. What in the world did we ever do to occupy our time before constantly thinking about what is coming next in the waiting game?
ReplyDeleteOh dear, I'm sorry about known donor untruths. That would not sit well with me either. I hope you can find another one very soon. I agree that the waiting gets old very quickly!
ReplyDeleteIt is so frustrating all the waiting and all the around stuff. Hope you find a new donor soon!
ReplyDeleteWhat did he lie about? (I know, I'm being nosy, of course that's personal!) Anyway, I am now starting to feel pretty lucky about my donor, so I'm hoping it stays that way! Changing donors... what a nightmare :(
ReplyDeleteBesides the age thing.. (which for the record, his ad said he was 31. He then later mentioned he was 35 and when I asked about the ad, he stated he must have been hacked. My first clue things were iffy about him.)
DeleteHe lied about some general health questions. I don't expect someone to know their entire family history. I don't even really want to know it either but if you had to have major surgery for it, I consider it important enough to mention it before I find out about it through other ways.
Second, this is more of if you say you're not going to do something but do it anyway kind of thing. He mentioned he only wanted to be a donor for one person at a time. Said that until I was pregnant (or we stopped trying) he would not be donating to anyone else. After I found out about the possible health issue (and trying to decide if it was a deal breaker or not), I went to the same site I found him through to browse ads and discovered he had put his ad back up even though he had taken it down after his agreement to be my donor and at that point in time he was not aware of my concerns of using him for health reasons. Now I don't really care if he wants to donate to multiple women. It doesn't bother me. What bothers me is he specifically stated he took down his ad(which I did verify because I'm nosy like that) and would not donate to anyone else while working with me. Now if he hadn't said anything, I wouldn't have cared but he did so now it's a matter of him lying to me which makes me start wondering what else is he lying about or misconstruing.
That's all that I've specifically caught.
I'm nosy too so I don't mind others being nosy.