Time marches by....

Sooooo....  I've been really quiet lately.  Mostly because not much to say and partly just so busy that I haven't had the time to write out a coherent post.

Minor updates:

My dog died.  M was a really good dog and a month later I still miss him very much.  I'm still questioning the smarts behind it, but I ended up getting another dog...  I should say a puppy... way before I felt/feel emotionally ready.  I meant to wait a few months but I made the mistake of letting a friend talk me into seeing a litter of puppies and well.... I couldn't walk away without her.  She is a total sweetheart but she is a puppy and I'm spending a lot of time potty training and just trying to get used to her and her to me.  She is a lab/boxer mix with very light eyes.  They were blue when I got her but they are turning more greenish now.

I forgot the pics earlier so here they are.  She's about 7-8 weeks in these photos.

Her favorite thing to do is run in front of mommy while she's walking

and then plop over onto her belly causing mommy to trip.

Here she's just staring up at me right after causing mommy to trip and nearly fall on her.

For some reason she loves chewing on grass.... alot.

Still nothing going on in the baby making department.  I took this cycle off because of everything going on.  Last try I was actually three days late but due to everything going on I didn't test (or should I say remember to test) until it was too late to do so.  I'm also wondering if previous symptoms (possibly psychosomatic) were actually indicating something.  This month I've taken off but I expected to have the same symptoms since I thought they were mostly my brain having me on.  I haven't had any of them but have continued to obsess about this cycle.  So is my brain smart enough to realize that nothing couldn't have happened and not given me any symptoms.... or did conception occur in the past but implantation didn't stick?

My co-worker (who is married and a decade younger than me) has just discovered she's pregnant due in March.  While I'm really happy for her, I've teared up several times.  I hope that I have managed not to let on how affected I am by her being pregnant.  The next few months will probably be a little rough at work.  It totally sucks that she wasn't even trying.

Also, living in the south with the heat and the drought is melting my brain.  Please bring in some cooler air and some rain soon?? 

My laptop which I use the most has been having some issues.  Hopefully, I'll get that fixed soon. 

Marielle

edited because I forgot the pics.