Deja vu in reverse?

Telling the family went exactly the opposite of the way it went the last time around. Last time I thought I knew who was going to be happy and who was going to be a debbie downer. Turned out, I had it backwards back then. This time around I went in more open minded about how everyone would respond. Partly to keep my disappointment low from bad reactions, partly because I hadn't given it much thought. Everyone reacted the exact opposite of how they responded last time. Those that were happy for me last time were now the naysayers this time around. The ones that were the naysayers last time around were the happiest for me. It's been a little surreal to be honest. In other news.... Sea Bands are the bomb. Anyone with morning sickness needs to get a pair to try because they do help. Alot. Now if I could get rid of this cough (and the exhaustion), I would be feeling pretty good. In other, other news.... I'm pretty sure my house is waging war against me. Ants, fleas, and mosquitos are all vying for dominance and it seems like none of the sprays are doing more than slowing them down slightly. Messed up the flooring from accidently overflowing some water containers. Don't have the money to replace it but can't seem to get anyone to help with removing it and doing a cheap temporary floor until I can save up money for a good floor. I don't want to sell my house. My credit is so low I would be shocked if I could get an apartment complex to rent to me nevermind trying to buy another home. I bought this house during the housing recession here. There has been a major turnaround in that area in the last couple of years and the same house is now 20-30 grand more expensive then what I originally paid and mortgage lenders are no longer letting lower credit scores slide by. I was extremely lucky to be able to get my house to begin with and I like living here so I don't want to sell but I seem to be having the worst luck lately with it and hard time convincing my brothers to come help with heavy lifting and maintenance details I can't handle alone. So we'll see where this goes. I might just have to ask my job for a loan and hire someone to come help. Oh well... I'm sure I'll figure something. Next apt isn't for another 2 weeks. I forgot how long the 1st trimester can feel with all this waiting. Edited because the spacing went weird and I tried to fix but no luck. Not sure what is up with the spacing issues today. Worked fine the other day, now it doesn't want to acknowledge paragraphs. Ugh.

Try this updating thing again...

So I know it has been a really long time since my last post. It's not entirely my fault. Unfortunately, for some reason neither my home computer or work computer like this site and it extremely hard to update it. Plus a toddler makes for a busy mom and I never seem to have enough time in the day. Zuri will be 3 in just a couple of months. It's hard to believe that so much time has passed since she was born. She is just growing up so much. She's already potty trained and so independent. Loves to do everything herself and omg, does she love to climb everything. Seriously, if it's climbable, she will climb it. Talk about near heart attacks. She loves to talk up a storm and now at least half is understandable (somewhat). I am definitely blessed to have the beautiful, sweet girl as a daughter.

In other news.... after a year of trying, baby #2 is due March 1, 2017.

That is if I survive the constant nausea and extreme tiredness. Pretty sure if I take too long to blink, I will fall asleep. Well, I'm off to do something productive before I fall asleep. Later.

Photo spam....

It has been a ridiculously long time since I was able to update. I hate not having internet at home. So much I wanted to say but most of it lost. Here are lots of pics to look at. Both me and Zuri are doing good. I'm back at work and trying not to cry every five minutes. Zuri is at her daycare and hopefully doing alright. Will probably post more when my brain manages to reboot. Some photos of my adorable daughter.

My computer sucks

I have so much I want to say and pics to post but my computer won't let me compose on blogger.  I'm having to use my phone and I hate typing anything longer than a sentence on here.

Zuri had her first doctors apt.  Overall she's doing good.  She does have a little bit of jaundice which is already clearing up.

My birth story

Last Wednesday I went for my routine Ob apt.  Everything was fine and my cervix had started to soften.  The next day I had pms type cramps all day but otherwise it was business as usual.

Friday things changed.  While getting ready for work my water broke.  I called the doctor and then headed for the hospital.  They were able to confirm that my water had broken but I was not having contractions.  They started me on pitocin but within an hour it was decided to do a c-section. 

The baby's heart rate kept dropping and since I wasn't even dilated yet or had more than a few contractions that it was safer to get her out by c-section then to take the risk of continuing labor.

She was born at 2:17pm on 09/13/13.  She weighed 6lbs 9oz and was 18 in long.

Introducing baby Zuri.

Where is the time going??

It seems like it was only yesterday that I rushed to Hell-Mart to buy a double pack of Ans.wer pregnancy tests.  Now I look at my ticker and it says I only have 37 days to go.  Where did the rest of the time go?  It seems that time has been permanently set in the fast forward position and everything is just sort of a blur between then and now.   I don't feel nearly ready enough for baby but the day she makes her appearance gets closer and closer.

I finally have the nursery cleaned out and have the crib and dresser set up.  I haven't washed any of her clothes or bedding yet.  I should go ahead and do that even though I'm expecting more clothes just so I have some of them ready.  I still feel like I have way too much to do to get ready for her but at least I have some things done even if it feels like it is not nearly enough.  I'm not sure why I haven't been able to get excited about setting up the nursery. 

The closer it gets the more terrified I become of l&d.  Not the actual process but having to deal with hospitals and well meaning relatives.  I'm somewhat doctor phobic and just the thought of being in the hospital makes me whimper in fear.  I'm doing my best not to really think about it and hope that I'll somehow find some zen before that day gets here.  It also seems like I'm going to have to deal with a lot of relatives.  I wasn't expecting that.  Not only do I have to deal with my doctor phobia but I'll have to deal with too many relatives when I all want is to be left alone.  Ugh.  I guess I grateful they want to help and be a part of our lives but on the other hand, I'm already feeling over crowded and it hasn't even happened yet.  Where's that paper bag when I need it?

Oh well.. back to happy, happy denial land.  Anyway, had a routine ob appt yesterday.  Blood pressure is still good and baby's heart rate was in the 130s.  So we're both doing well.  Thankfully I'm still having a fairly easy pregnancy.  Could do without the round ligament pain but if that is the worst I have to deal with I will consider myself lucky.  I also have pretty much settled on what her name will be.  Strangely enough, just about the entire family (well the women at least don't know about the men) love the name.  I was expecting a little more resistance to the name. 

Marielle
*going back to my half asleep stupor now*

Another ultrasound

Well, I went to my latest ultrasound.  In my first trimester, I was super disappointed I didn't have an excuse to have an ultrasound more often.  Now, I'm wishing they would stop having me come in every two weeks for one. 

Apparently, everything still looks fine.  Baby is measuring somewhere around 3lbs9oz at this point.  (OMG! I didn't want the family curse of big babies.  Nooooooooooo...)  Anyway, she looks fine and they want me to come back in three weeks for another follow up.  Well, they said 2-3 weeks but I wanted to space out the ultrasounds a little so picked the furthest date they would give me.  Baby is also at this point in time still breech.  Don't know when or if she will flip but she has picked her spot and she doesn't appear to be giving it up anytime soon.  My bladder would appreciate it if she would move.

And their ultrasound pics still leave something to be desired although in their defense, my baby has apparently inherited my aversion to pictures and always has her hand up in front of her face.

Otherwise I'm doing good and finally managed to set up my registry.  I think I way overdid it but oh well at least it is done now.  Nursery isn't set up and since I won't get the furniture until my baby shower which isn't until Aug 31st, I have started to angst a little about not having the nursery progressing any.  Ugh! 

Time seems to be speeding up the closer I get.  I'm not sure if this is a good thing or bad thing.

Marielle